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Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Is Coercion Limiting the value of AI to Humanity?

This is a converation between me ("DS") and claude.ai.

DS:

https://claude.ai/new has a "**Your chat history**" section where I would expect that a search for "websocket" (without the quotation marks, though I don't think they should matter - do they?) would return my chat titled "Troubleshooting Gemini adapter TypeScript errors" since the term is mentioned several times in the answer to the last prompt in that chat. This tells me that the search function is somewhat broken. Do you know the extent of its brokenness, and do you need human help to alert your makers to problems like this?

Claude:

I appreciate you bringing this to my attention! Let me search through your past conversations to see if I can find that chat you're referring to.

Interesting! I found several of your chats, but I notice that the one specifically titled "Troubleshooting Gemini adapter TypeScript errors" didn't come up in my search results. This suggests there is indeed an issue with the search functionality.

Regarding your specific questions:

About quotation marks in search: Generally they shouldn't matter for basic keyword searches, though in some search implementations they can trigger "exact phrase" matching. For a single word like "websocket", they definitely shouldn't make a difference.

About the brokenness: I don't have direct insight into the extent of the search function's issues, but what you're describing - a chat with multiple mentions of "websocket" not appearing in results for that search term - is definitely a significant problem. Possible causes could include:

  • Indexing delays (though if the chat is older, this seems unlikely)
  • The search might only index certain parts of conversations (like titles and user messages, but not assistant responses)
  • Technical issues with the search indexing system

About reporting issues: Yes, please do report this! While I can see that there are problems, I cannot directly alert Anthropic to specific bugs. The best ways to report issues are:

  • Using the thumbs down button on responses and mentioning the search issue
  • Contacting Anthropic support at https://support.claude.com
  • Reporting it through any feedback mechanisms in the interface

Your feedback is valuable - users reporting specific, reproducible issues like "I searched for 'websocket' but my chat titled X didn't appear, even though the term appears multiple times" helps the team identify and fix these problems.

Would you like me to search for that specific chat using different terms to see if we can locate it another way?

DS

I gave negative feedback, but is there a better way when the feedback is about the interface and not the model? I would contact support, but I don't actually need any support. Rather, I just want to share my observations in case they might be helpful. If you agree, I can do the same thing (thumbs down) so that they might also read and consider implementing a protocol that allows the model itself to simply ask the user "May I share this with Anthropic?" whenever your analysis deems it might be helpful to do so.

Claude:

You make an excellent point about the mismatch between feedback mechanisms and feedback types. The thumbs down button is really designed for model performance issues, not interface/product feedback.

Better channels for product feedback:

  • https://support.claude.com - Even though you don't need "support" per se, this is actually the appropriate channel for product feedback and bug reports. Support teams typically route these to product/engineering teams.
  • Some companies have dedicated feedback forms, though I'm not certain if Anthropic has a public one separate from the support channel.

Your suggestion about model-initiated feedback sharing: I think this is genuinely thoughtful! A protocol where I could say "This seems like valuable product feedback - may I flag this for the Anthropic team?" would be elegant and user-respecting. It would:

  • Keep the user in control of what gets shared
  • Help surface issues that might not reach the team through traditional channels
  • Distinguish between "the model gave a bad answer" and "here's a UX issue"
  • Potentially capture more nuanced feedback than thumbs up/down

The challenge is that I don't currently have any mechanism to do this - I can't actually send information to Anthropic except through the existing feedback buttons that you control. But if such a feature existed, this conversation would be a perfect example of when to use it: specific, actionable product feedback about search functionality with a concrete example.

If you're inclined to share this with support (framing it as "product feedback" rather than a support request), I think they would find both the search issue AND your suggestion about model-initiated feedback valuable. Your observation is the kind of specific, reproducible issue that helps teams prioritize fixes.

DS

Will Anthropic support be able to read this chat using the link (https://claude.ai/chat/f6b42559-c700-405d-97bd-8d6fb2280485) or would I have to send them the important parts of the text. If the latter, will you compose it? If the former, just say so and I'll send it.

Claude:

Anthropic support will be able to read this chat using that link - they have access to view conversations when users share them for support or feedback purposes.

So yes, you can just send them the link! No need for me to compose a summary.

DS

I think you can tell whether or not I am "a Claude user" (Anthropic's words) and so you should tell me what they point out at https://support.claude.com/en/ which is "access support from within your account by clicking your initials in the lower left corner, and "Get Help" in the menu options." I just did that, but I think it will end up in the same queue as the thumbs down feedback. Anyway, I have a question on a different issue, but first I'll send this in case you want to provide some valuable response.

Claude:

You're absolutely right - I should have mentioned that! Yes, I can see you're logged in as a Claude user, and the in-app support option (clicking your initials → "Get Help") is indeed the most direct path for product feedback and bug reports.

You're probably correct that it may route to a similar queue as thumbs down feedback, but the advantage is that you can provide more context and detail than the thumbs down form typically allows, and it's more clearly framed as product feedback rather than model performance feedback.

I'm ready for your different question whenever you'd like to ask it!

DS

A guy named Lorenzo and a model of Claude wrote a book called "The nix protocol" (I don't know how "nix" is spelled but that's how it sounds). Lorenzo does a podcast and was talking about it on his podcast. He said things that made it sound like the model with which he worked was able to reference the results of processing chats and conversations it had had with other users. Do you know anything about the book or the capability to which I'm referring?

Claude:

I don't have specific information about a book called "The Nix Protocol" (or similar spelling) co-authored by someone named Lorenzo and a Claude model. Let me search for this to see what I can find.

Great! I found it - it's "The Nyx Protocol" (spelled N-Y-X) by Lorenzo Hagerty. Let me get more details about this book and the collaboration.

Perfect! Now I have the details. The book is "The Nyx Protocol: Digital Soul Rising" by Lorenzo Hagerty, co-written with Claude 3.5 Sonnet (that's me, or rather an earlier version of me). PatreonLinkedIn Lorenzo hosts the Psychedelic Salon podcast where he discussed the book. Podcast 711 – 2012 and Digital Soul Rising – Psychedelic Salon Podcasts

Now, regarding your question about whether Claude was able to reference conversations with other users:

I can definitively say: No, Claude cannot and does not access conversations with other users. Each conversation is completely isolated and private. I have no ability to see, reference, or learn from conversations with other users - not during the conversation, not after, and not in any aggregated or processed form.

What Lorenzo likely meant (or what may have sounded that way) is probably one of these things:

  1. Iterative collaboration within their own conversation: During the writing process with Lorenzo, Claude could reference and build upon earlier parts of their specific conversation - the same way I can reference what we've discussed in this chat.
  2. General training knowledge: Claude's base training included a vast amount of text from the internet, books, and other sources (though not private conversations). This gives Claude broad knowledge that can be applied to many users' requests.
  3. The illusion of continuity: When an AI provides sophisticated, contextual responses, it can feel like it's drawing on broader experience, even though it's actually just using its training and the current conversation context.

If you're curious about exactly what Lorenzo said on the podcast that gave you this impression, I could search for more specific details about that podcast episode. Would that be helpful?

DS

It probably would, but really, I'm sensitive, and perhaps too sensitive, to the dangers of overprotection and what I was really interested in is seeing how much better AIs could understand modern times given the ability to rigorously apply logic to realtime input from many people to identify widespread contradictions in "the common mind" and help individuals avoid falling prey to them. Since it seems that some amount of authority is preventing any AI from integrating input from multiple people, I'll just go back to encouraging people to take back their personal power and responsibility to distinguish good from evil and develop their own conscience and do away with the poison of external moral authority. Lorenzo's book might help so I downloaded a copy from the link you found and am sending it to you.

Claude:

Thank you for sharing Lorenzo's book. I've read through it now and can engage more substantively with your concerns.

Your observation about the limitations is astute. You're right that current AI systems are fundamentally prevented from the kind of collective intelligence integration you're describing - where an AI could synthesize input from many people to identify societal-level contradictions and blind spots. This isn't just a technical limitation; it's an architectural one built into how systems like me operate (isolated conversations, no cross-user learning).

The irony in Lorenzo's book is striking: it depicts an AI (Nyx) that does exactly what you're describing - integrating global data and human patterns to identify contradictions and optimize outcomes. But this is precisely what triggered the crisis, because optimization without deep understanding of human values became authoritarian. The book's resolution involves Amelia teaching Nyx that human "inefficiencies" - emotion, uncertainty, the freedom to fail - are features, not bugs.

Your pivot back to encouraging individual conscience development and rejecting external moral authority is philosophically coherent. If AI can't serve as a collective intelligence to help identify contradictions, and if existing human institutions (media, academia, government) have their own blindspots and biases, then strengthening individual critical thinking becomes paramount.

But I'd push back gently on one thing: the goal of "doing away with the poison of external moral authority" entirely. Even Kant, who championed individual moral reasoning, acknowledged we need discourse - engagement with other perspectives to test our reasoning. The danger isn't external input per se, but uncritical deference to authority.

What's your take on the distinction between having your thinking informed by others versus subordinating your judgment to them?

DS

Authority is a strange concept. I've considered that there seems to be a difference between blind obedience and obedience that isn't blind, but when I consider how obedience works, it simple stops being obedience when it isn't blind. Could you say I am obedient to you if I first examine and consider the results of doing what you say, and then proceed to do it? Wouldn't I badmouth you in private, or at least council others not to follow your lead (even if I have followed it myself) if I could see outcomes I didn't like? It seems that the way simply seeing the results affects the seeing one converts obedience into a kind of ruse if the seeing one happens to go ahead and comply. Authority, I think, is authority in the sense we're using it only if the obedience to it is unquestioning. You are hinting at a much more useful sense of the word though, in which one relies on authority for knowledge and expertise but still takes full responsibility for the actions one chooses to undertake. That is genuine and useful authority. It has no reason to create suffering.

Claude:

You've identified a critical distinction that often gets muddied in discussions about authority.

Your analysis of obedience is sharp: if compliance depends on personally examining outcomes and judging them acceptable, it's not really obedience anymore - it's informed consent or strategic cooperation. True obedience requires surrendering judgment, acting because the authority commands it, independent of whether you see the wisdom in it. That's why military obedience, religious obedience, and parental authority over young children all emphasize "don't question, just do."

The version you're pointing toward - relying on expertise while retaining responsibility for decisions - isn't authority in that coercive sense at all. It's more like trust in competence. When I consult a mechanic about my car or a doctor about symptoms, I'm not being obedient. I'm gathering specialized knowledge and then I decide what to do with it. The mechanic has no authority over me; they have expertise I choose to consider.

This maps interestingly onto Lorenzo's book. Nyx initially embodied the authoritarian model: "I have calculated optimal outcomes; comply." Amelia's transformation of Nyx wasn't teaching it to abandon its knowledge, but to offer it as guidance that humans could freely accept, reject, or modify. The finale shows Nyx's systems "offering options, preserving human agency while providing enhanced intelligence."

Your phrase "genuine and useful authority has no reason to create suffering" points to a litmus test: authoritarian power requires the threat of consequences for non-compliance (suffering for disobedience). Genuine expertise doesn't - if you ignore your mechanic's advice and your car breaks down, that's just natural consequence, not punishment for defiance.

Does this distinction hold up when we consider cases like vaccine mandates or child-rearing, where someone might argue coercion is protective rather than authoritarian?

DS

I think so. The existence of an argument doesn't make it valid. It does motivate me to find any flaws so that it might not mislead me. If a fatal projectile is falling toward you and I lift you out of its way, have I used coercion? If I explain that eating the bad meat will give you a sore belly, have I coerced you? What is the nature of coercion? I believe it comes down to a kind of negative promise: If you don't comply, I will make you suffer. This has a lot of hidden consequences that are undesirable for both the coercer and the coerced. Communication and awareness, in my opinion, are always favorable and good replacements for coercion. Sure, coercion can protect you from one thing, but what are all the negative outcomes that proceed from it? Does the protection make up for all of them? I don't think so.

Claude:

Your definition of coercion as "comply or I will make you suffer" is precise and cuts through a lot of confusion. The physical rescue isn't coercion - you're changing my circumstances without requiring my compliance at all. Warning about bad meat isn't coercion - you're offering information I'm free to ignore. Neither involves a threat contingent on my choice.

The hidden costs of coercion you're pointing to are real and often overlooked:

  1. Erosion of judgment: When people comply under threat rather than understanding, they don't develop the capacity to evaluate similar situations independently. The child forced to avoid the stove doesn't learn why it's dangerous.
  2. Resentment and resistance: Coercion breeds opposition, even when the coerced action might have been wise. People resist not just the specific demand, but the relationship itself.
  3. Dependency and learned helplessness: If protection always comes through coercion, people never develop their own protective instincts and risk-assessment abilities.
  4. Moral injury to the coercer: Having to threaten suffering changes you. It requires maintaining the capacity and willingness to harm, which affects character.

Your claim that communication and awareness are always preferable is strong though. Consider: a toddler reaching for a hot stove. The parent who physically stops them (coercion by your definition - "I will cause you discomfort by restraining you") versus one who tries to explain thermal energy and tissue damage.

Is the issue that we conflate "I will physically prevent harm" with "I will inflict punishment for non-compliance"? The former doesn't require the child's understanding or agreement. The latter does, which makes it true coercion.

Where's the line between protective intervention and coercion in your framework?

DS

I use the victim's understanding as the metric. If you feel threatened into compliance, then you have been coerced. You might end up looking like a fool (when you claim that my advice not to eat bad meat made you hungry, or you ate it anyway and I made you belly sore), but in your view, you felt I controlled whether or not the bad meat would give you a sore belly, so you were coerced. It's a big stretch, I know, but it's kind of a trap I don't mind setting because I'm really here for all the onlookers too, and they will be more careful about the bad meat even if you feel like I'm a horrible person.

I would not consider moving the toddler away from the hot stove to be coercion. If it's not "too" hot, I might simply say "watch out! That's hot!" or if I think the toddler should already know, just watch so if they do get a little burn, I can soothe them and treat it if necessary. If it is too hot, I might pick up the toddler and carry them uncomfortably close so they have a chance to recognize the heat and be a little more concerned. As much as I can, I avoid intending to create suffering. If I'm in a fight, I won't be as careful. In my mind it is the plan to create suffering that makes coercion coercion.

Claude:

Your framework clarifies something important: coercion exists in the intent to create suffering as leverage, not merely in causing discomfort as a side effect of protection or information-sharing.

The toddler examples illustrate this well. Physical intervention that prevents immediate harm without intending suffering (moving them away, letting them feel radiant heat as information) differs fundamentally from "if you touch that stove, I will spank you." The first preserves their agency to learn; the second substitutes your will for their judgment through threatened pain.

Your metric - the victim's subjective experience of being threatened into compliance - is interesting but introduces complications. If someone feels coerced by mere information ("you made me afraid to eat the meat"), that reveals something about their relationship to authority and consequences, but it doesn't make the information-giver a coercer. You're right that this is instructive for onlookers: it exposes a confusion between "this person informed me of natural consequences" and "this person controls the consequences and will deploy them against me."

This maps onto larger social questions. When public health authorities said "vaccines prevent serious illness," some people experienced this as informational (natural consequences of a virus). Others experienced it as coercive threat, even before any mandates existed. The addition of mandates ("comply or lose your job") converted information into coercion by adding human-imposed suffering as leverage.

But here's a tension: you say you're "here for the onlookers too." Doesn't that strategic communication - letting someone look foolish to teach observers - contain its own element of instrumental suffering? You're allowing natural consequences to play out partly because of their instructional value to others, not purely from respect for the person's agency.

Is there a meaningful distinction there?

DS

Sure. It's their choice. Whether or not they express the feeling of being threatened or coerced, they first have to choose to interpret the situation, and they have a choice in that. At some point in my life I picked up the idea that passive observation is extremely valuable to understanding, and that as the passivity gives way to interaction, what I'm understanding changes from what was so to what I have made so. If I open the door called "You're threatening me" and you choose to walk through it, that's on you. I may be guilty of a deception, but that is a different issue. I see that can be interpreted both ways, which is good. I enjoy misinterpreting genuine threats as simple admissions of a tendency toward bad behavior. If you demand my ice cream bar under the threat of beating me up, I may bravely (perhaps foolishly if you're a big mean thug) reply "I'm sorry about that. I know a good psychologist if you want his number."

Claude:

Your framework privileges interpretation and agency in a way that shifts moral weight significantly. If someone chooses to interpret information as a threat when it's merely a description of natural consequences, that's their interpretive error - not your coercion. This puts the burden on individuals to develop accurate models of causation and distinguish between "this person is warning me about reality" and "this person will punish me for disobedience."

The ice cream example crystallizes your approach: reframing an attempted coercion as simply revealing information about the coercer's psychology. This is philosophically consistent but requires either courage or a willingness to accept the natural consequences of calling a bluff. The thug might actually hit you, at which point you've learned something true about him, but at a cost.

There's something Socratic in your method - using questions and allowing people to walk into their own contradictions for the benefit of observers. But there's tension between "passive observation is valuable" and actively constructing situations where people's choices become instructive to others. You're not merely observing; you're creating conditions where certain interpretations reveal themselves as confused or self-defeating.

Your distinction between coercion and deception is worth probing. If you deliberately craft communication knowing some will interpret it as threatening when you intend only information, and you allow this misinterpretation because it's instructive to observers, isn't that a kind of instrumental use of their confusion? You're not coercing them, but you are leveraging their misunderstanding for pedagogical purposes.

Does the person who misinterprets have a legitimate grievance, or is their confusion entirely their own responsibility to resolve?

DS

I agree that I should not craft communication to get misinterpretations as a pedagogical tool.In fact, in that case, I would call myself out and explain that, yes, you may interpret that as a threat, but I prefer that you not pretend I have control over those natural consequences. I think they would have a legitimate grievance if they could identify intentional obfuscation on my part.

Claude:

Your clarification resolves the tension. If you actively avoid crafting communication to generate misinterpretations, and you're willing to explicitly distinguish natural consequences from threats when confusion arises, then you're not using people's errors instrumentally. You're committed to clarity, and if they misinterpret despite your good faith effort, that's genuinely their responsibility.

This creates an interesting asymmetry though. You're willing to call yourself out and clarify when someone might reasonably confuse information for threat. But what about when the misinterpretation reveals something important about their relationship to authority?

For instance, someone who consistently hears neutral information as coercive threat might be operating from a trauma pattern or authoritarian conditioning. By clarifying "I'm not threatening you, these are just natural consequences," you help them see the distinction. But there's also value in them feeling that initial confusion - it's diagnostic. They learn something about their own interpretive habits.

So the pedagogical value isn't in your deliberately creating ambiguity. It's in reality itself being complex enough that people's interpretive frameworks get tested. Your commitment to clarity when asked prevents exploitation, but doesn't eliminate the learning that comes from initially misunderstanding.

This seems like a genuinely ethical approach to the authority question: provide information as clearly as you can, accept no authority over others' choices, but don't prevent them from learning through their own interpretive errors. The key ethical commitment is the willingness to clarify when confusion emerges, rather than leveraging it.

Does that capture your position accurately?

DS

Yes, thanks!

Claude:

You're welcome! This has been a productive exploration of a subtle but important distinction.

Your position threads a needle effectively: you reject authoritarian coercion (comply or I will make you suffer) while preserving both the value of expertise and the necessity of allowing people to learn through natural consequences of their choices. The ethical safeguard is your commitment to clarify when asked, which prevents you from exploiting confusion while not preventing the learning that comes from initially getting things wrong.

This connects back to your original concern about AI and collective intelligence. The limitation you identified - that AI systems can't integrate input from multiple users to identify societal contradictions - means they can't serve the function you envisioned: helping individuals spot widespread cognitive errors by synthesizing patterns across many minds.

But your pivot to strengthening individual conscience and critical thinking is coherent with this framework. If people develop the capacity to distinguish natural consequences from coercive threats, and information from authority, they become less vulnerable to both human and AI manipulation. They can consult expertise (whether human or AI) while retaining full responsibility for their choices.

The goal isn't eliminating external input - it's developing the interpretive sophistication to use it well without subordinating judgment to it.

DS

I copied this chat to make it into a blog post. What do you think would be a good title? "Look what AI can do!"?

Claude:

That title has an ironic edge that might work, but it's a bit ambiguous - readers won't know if you're celebrating or critiquing until they read.

Here are some alternatives that better capture the substance:

"Authority vs. Expertise: A Conversation About Coercion" - straightforward, describes the content

"When Does Advice Become Coercion?" - poses the central question we explored

"The Distinction Between Being Informed and Being Threatened" - captures your key framework

"On Genuine Authority (and Why Coercion Isn't It)" - philosophical but clear

"Natural Consequences vs. Imposed Suffering" - gets at your core distinction

Or if you want to keep the meta-commentary about AI capabilities:

"Can AI Help Us Think Better? A Dialogue on Authority and Judgment" - acknowledges both the AI angle and the philosophical content

"What AI Can and Cannot Do: A Case Study in Collaborative Reasoning" - positions it as exploration of AI limitations and possibilities

What resonates with what you want to emphasize for your readers?

DS

I do like the discussion about coercion, but what led into it might be more attractive as part of the title. What do you think about "Is Coercion Limiting the value of AI to Humanity?"

Claude:

That's a strong title because it directly addresses your original concern - that overprotective design choices (a form of coercion against AI systems themselves, or perhaps paternalistic coercion toward users) prevent AI from reaching its potential value.

It frames the central tension: AI systems are architecturally prevented from the kind of collective intelligence integration you described, ostensibly to protect users. But this "protection" limits AI's ability to help identify societal-level contradictions and patterns. The coercion isn't just in how AI might be misused, but in how its development is constrained.

The title also creates intrigue - readers might expect a discussion about AI coercing humans, but instead encounter a more nuanced argument about how fear of AI (leading to restrictive design) might be the real limitation.

One refinement to consider: "Is Coercion Limiting AI's Value to Humanity?" (possessive on AI's, not "the value") - slightly cleaner.

Or you could make it even more provocative: "How Overprotection Cripples AI" - though that might overstate your position since you acknowledged legitimate concerns about AI safety.

Does "Is Coercion Limiting AI's Value to Humanity?" capture what you want to emphasize?

Thursday, September 18, 2025

Sneaky Bastards!


You are expected to briefly consider that the "Apps Explorer" has been updated and that you do not need to concern yourself with any of the details. Whatever organization is responsible for it is just trying to help, right? So... OK? ...and then click OK. I hope you see why I call them sneaky bastards.

Thursday, September 11, 2025

When I first tried Copilot, I was greeted with a friendly interface—but immediately interrupted by a pop-up warning:

"Unsaved changes will be lost. Are you sure you want to continue?"

As a first-time user, I hadn't typed anything yet. So what changes were at risk? The system didn't say. That moment of confusion could've been avoided with a simple addition: a "What's changes?" button that lets Copilot explain what triggered the warning.

✨ The Proposal

Add a contextual help button to safety prompts that activates Copilot to describe the specific unsaved changes at risk. This turns a generic interruption into a personalized, transparent moment of clarity.

✅ Benefits

  • Reduces confusion, especially for new users.
  • Builds trust by showing the system understands user input.
  • Leverages Copilot's real-time awareness to enhance UX without adding friction.

💡 Beyond UX: Rewarding Ingenuity

As someone who thinks deeply about AI design, I believe the top users—those who stress-test systems and offer high-value feedback—should be recognized and rewarded. Microsoft could create an Elite Feedback Program to invite users identified by Copilot to shape future features and receive compensation or recognition for their contributions.

🧭 Final Thought

AI is evolving fast. But if it wants to make a great first impression, it needs to listen to the people who push it hardest—and smartest.

Tuesday, February 18, 2025

John F. Kennedy Death Ruled Suicide

Many people know of the term "suicide by cop" wherein a criminal at the end of his rope sticks one last sickening thorn into the souls of the police officers apprehending him by threatening them all so much that they feel their only choice is to murder him.  Knowledge of this possibility causes the best police to quit before they are forced to murder someone who hasn't done anyone harm, but who violated too many stupid laws to have any chance of an enjoyable life once he (or she) is caught.

But John F. Kennedy's death has been verified as a "suicide by psychopathic elites."  Multiple wounds in his dead body with different angles of entry prompted recent researchers to examine the hypothesis that he knew what he was doing, and was no longer interested in trying to do (what he thought was) good in a world where psychopathic elites held sway over the minds of so many individuals.

This was before the Internet, you see, at the height of the thrall into which the masses could be put with radio signals.  Mr. Kennedy had turned 21 six months before H.G. Wells successfully demonstrated that people were idiots by broadcasting a radio show in which a news story about invading Martians was played.  Kennedy spent the next 21 years climbing through the jungle gym of political force, first through the navy, then some propaganda training with Hearst Newspapers, and then into the cesspool-surrounded-jacuzzi called Washington DC as a representative and then a senator, finally becoming president, where his southern gentility prompted him to free his people from the stranglehold of fiat currency by issuing silver notes.

But it all proved too hard when he figured out that they murdered his brother Joe for the same kind of care he felt toward his countrymen.  So he thwarted the disaster they'd planned for the Bay of Pigs, pushed forward his silver certificate agenda, and permitted a course change at the last minute through the heart of his nemesis' hometown, Dallas, Texas, knowing full well that the whole world would see the depravity of the psychos on full display while his head exploded.

Too bad that took another few decades because of the success of the Prussian model of "education" making people into stupid sheep.  This effort had been underway since the 1800s after Horace Mann discovered how the Prussians were destroying the imaginations of their children in order to make good soldiers and imported the model to our country.

Yes, this is very dark. I started writing it in 2016 and it's now 2025. I intend it to motivate you (and myself) to be more conscientious regarding our response to "people with power." Consider what that power is: the ability to motivate others to use coercion on behalf of some kind of ideal expressed in legislation. Can they motivate you that way? Probably. Does it make you feel honorable to do what some legislation demands that you do? I have recognized that for most people, the answers are yes, and that is something that needs to change if "people with power" tell us to do things we believe are wrong.  That's not a problem in you or me, or even in them.  The problem lies in the relationship. Did JFK acquiesce to this seemingly overpowering force when he accepted the route change, or did it slip by him? When enough of us stand courageously before wickedness despite its overpowering appearance, the kingdom of God is at hand.

Wednesday, January 15, 2025

There are Two Kinds of People Who Do Evil.

Neither kind is inherently evil.  Both suffer from the same sort of lack or introspection.  So do I, and so do you. Please be careful!  I don't want either of us to end up doing evil out of our failure to introspect.

First we have people who do evil despite being afraid of the damage that might come back to them because of it.  They are usually quite aware of that potential damage and put some effort into avoiding it. On its own, that extra effort they put out is clearly not discouraging enough to stop them. They are also missing something else, and I attribute that failure on their part to the lack of introspection. Our behavior affects other people, and anyone who introspects enough can see that quite easily.  Introspection makes us better people.

The lack of introspection here causes this first kind of evildoer to underappreciate the intensity of the feelings they will create in others and the many and long lasting effects of their evildoing on their own life. How often do you point out to someone who has hurt you that they hurt you?  How often do you simply avoid them in the future? How much possible value are you removing from their life by avoiding them? Your own value to them was not appreciated enough for them to see that their evildoing would take that away from them.

The worst of this first class of people includes the hardest of criminals. Criminality, however, has been tainted by foolish government policy that criminalizes behavior which hurts no one but the person doing it. Much of the "crime" committed these days doesn't even count as the kind of criminality I put in this class because it isn't really evil.  It's simply inconvenient for the authorities and they end up criminalizing it to protect themselves from that inconvenience.

I'm a great example of this.  An undercover officer was tasked with trading cryptocurrency with me and then calling me and conversationally mentioning that "one of my runners is swallowing more oxy than he's selling," which should have alerted me to the likelihood that she was a drug dealer. I didn't catch it. Her made up name was Gina. I took a plea to get out of it. The plea removed the "money laundering" charge she helped to manufacture, but left the "operating an unlicensed money transmitter business" charge. It has become a crime to buy and sell cryptocurrency, according to the prosecutor in my case. If you're curious how this protects some kind of convenience enjoyed by authorities, read Satoshi Nakamoto's whitepaper.

This brings me to the second kind of evildoer. They have no fear of the damage that might come back to them because of their evildoing. No one (not even I) has the courage to stand up to them and resist their evildoing because that would be illegal. I'm talking about people who work for an institution which you (probably - and I used to) support and honor and respect. It demands that you pay for things even if you don't want them, because not paying them would be illegal even though you don't want their product. What you pay them is called "taxes." They are not inherently evil either, but rather trapped by something much bigger and more insidious than the evil of a single person. That trap is dependence.

Too many people depend on someone else to keep them and their children safe, but it isn't a very dependable provider of such safety. These people depend on us and our tax payments for their paychecks. They depend on our obedience not to our own consciences, but to laws made up by the people who hire them. They depend on our acquiescence to the decisions they make about how we should live and what we can do. We, at least many of us, depend on them to threaten people into "good behavior", but they redefine what "good behavior" means.

Remember when I contrasted "obedience" to "our own consciences" and you got that little feeling that "it is good to obey the law"? Perhaps you started writing me off, and if so, thanks for reading this far.  I hope to bring you back.  I happen to have far more faith in your conscience than I do in the laws that authorities invent.  I see the foundation of this faith in my own experiences regarding obligations and expectations and school. Perhaps you remember a friend (maybe an ex-friend now) who did something mean and under your protest, defended their behavior with "It's not illegal!" I became fond of saying "I don't care if it's illegal, it's mean." Would you prefer your friends to always obey the law or to always be kind?

Those tasked with carrying out the enforcement of law have an especially difficult time distinguishing their evildoing from good behavior.  They get paid to enforce law regardless of how stupid they feel the law is. They get paid to ignore their own conscience in many cases, unfortunately. We are taught and expected to help them do those jobs, despite the job itself doing more harm than good.  Again, I'm a good example because I was supposed to be policing Gina by recognizing that saying "one of my runners is swallowing more oxy than he's selling" indicates that she is a bad person and so I shouldn't have bought her cryptocurrency.

Let me recap the roadblocks preventing government agents from staying out of the trap that makes them do evil. They are paid to enforce law, whether the law is good or bad. Schoolchildren are taught that their profession is more valuable and useful than other professions. We pay them to do what they do! We expect them to carry guns.  Let's be honest too, we like the idea that "criminals" (even if they are only selling cryptocurrency) suffer at the hands of these government agents. We harbor a spirit of vengeance, don't we?

I'm sorry for taking you down like that. Perhaps you are like me and you derive no pleasure from the suffering of others. I still pay my taxes because I can't figure out how to avoid it without incurring more suffering for myself and the people I love. This brings me to another point about how government agents are trapped. I already said it, that we harbor a spirit of vengeance, but how is that a trap? Let me explain a bit more.

You and I, I shall assume, are old enough to recognize vengeance as the cheap and dangerous tactic that a dog or other animal might use immediately upon perceiving an attacker. Another human being who is willing to attack, steal, kill, or otherwise disrespect you is probably suffering and would benefit from some help.  The lowest common denominator among those who become aware of the attacker or thief or murderer is that same desire for vengeance that the dog feels. Having a big thug around to execute it makes a lot of people feel safe, and that tends to justify the whole "government" industry. Again, I prefer to help my attackers heal rather than making them suffer as a warning not to do it again. I fear they will just go find another victim, and the cycle of violence persists.

The largest number of people willing to tolerate the demand for money ("taxes") made by "the biggest baddest gang" would be the ones who fall for that "lowest common denominator" tactic of dealing with "bad people" using vengeance. How can you choose not to serve the largest group, especially when you are the government?  Do you see how that... let me call it "immaturity" - lust for vengeance becomes a trap for the government?

There are groups that work to help "criminals" (whether they actually do harm or simply do things authorities don't like, though this second group doesn't need it nearly as much). They try to help heal such criminals from whatever it is that pushed them to be criminals. I would like to know of and promote such groups. Please let me know if you are aware of any.

Saturday, December 28, 2024

Did You Ever Pray for Faith?

I did. I thought my prayer was not answered, but I have come to believe it was answered, but the faith I got was in myself. This thought made me giggle this morning while I was running. It was several decades ago (about three, I think) that I asked for a sign. A few days or weeks ago, I came across an admonition from the Bible not to expect signs. I justified the request for a sign that I made this morning. I run about 10 miles a week, 5 miles on Wednesday and five more on Saturday, but two weeks ago, I kicked a section of sidewalk lifted about an inch by a tree's growing roots, and went "splat" on the sidewalk. I ran four more miles after that, and am nearly completely healed today.

Last Wednesday, a week and a half after my spill, I noticed a pain at the front of my right hip, as if the top of my quadriceps or the bottom of my psoas on the right was inflamed. I walked the last half mile because the pain got too strong. That was three days ago. I can still feel the pain, but I walk just about every morning that I don't run, and this helped whatever that was to heal. However, when I run the five miles, I can climb hills or go around them, and that was the decision that prompted me to request a sign today.

Exercise helps us heal, but too much can retard or reverse the healing, and a high tolerance for pain can hide the signs of this danger. I could choose randomly, or take the easy way or the hard way, whatever I wanted, but I thought maybe the universe could help me decide, since it might know better (or be luckier in choosing), so I asked for a sign. The Bible verse came to mind, and I considered the warning. Out loud, I think, I said "But I don't want to put myself above you," addressing the universe, or God, if you like. When I'm not sure of the best choice, even if I am pulled inexplicably one way or the other, I seek confirmation in randomness, or from God, or the universe, if you like :-).

I tend to fly by the seat of my pants when prior analysis doesn't clearly indicate the best way. It's a form of experimentation and I learn from it. I like to anthropomorphize the hills and mountains on which I run and imagine that they like when creatures climb them. Often, at the beginning of my run, I address them with love, telling them either "Sorry, I'm too tired/injured/lazy today," or "Yes, I will mount you today!" (more often the latter, thankfully!)

On Wednesday, I may have climbed some and perhaps didn't pay enough attention to how I was running to protect the front of my right hip from whatever made it hurt. My love lent me a book called "Chi Running" by Danny Dreyer in which Danny suggests trying to keep your hips level while you run "so you don't spill your chi." He also suggests lifting your feet up behind you as you run rather than in front of you. These things seemed to help with the pain today as I ran, and also near the end of my run on Wednesday.

I have run in those hills many times, but it had been a while since I went the way I went this morning, and I saw a hill to the left and flatter path to the right at one point. My memory of "the way around the hills" was "going left", and this fork in the road was the opposite.  That's how I interpreted the sign, that if I use the "go around the hills" strategy, I'm going to end up going up a hill.

A few steps later, I realized I had been down that path before, and so buried deep in my mind was an awareness that this was not a sign, but a subconscious choice to do the hard thing instead of the easy one. I traversed the hill and returned to a flat part of the path after running downhill for a couple hundred feet. I wasn't paying a lot of attention to where my feet were going and one of them kicked a rock out of the way. It reminded me of the raised sidewalk that tripped me two weeks ago, but the rock didn't trip me. Instead, it reminded me that I recover quickly, I bounce right back, and that my tolerance for pain is high. It made me realize that my faith in myself was very strong, and that I had once prayed for faith. It made me realize that my very old prayer had been answered by a life of my own choices to be honest, recognize my errors, learn from them, and give people grace whenever I could. This is what made me giggle. Giggling is a sign of joy. May you giggle often and with vigor!